Time is a Collector

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‘Time is a Collector’ is a play by Richard Moult, completed in January 2008. It is published here for the first time.

Link: Time is a Collector.

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A Questioning

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Why do we imprison ourselves?

We never allow ourselves to be the beginning. To be one human, or two, or however many, just wandering through the land we have found ourselves in. Curious, as such a human would be. Young, as such a human would be. With a sense of possibility, as such a human would have.

As I wander, with the girl who wanders with me, I find that this land has already been taken. Everywhere, an owner. Everywhere, a law standing between us, as two humans at the beginning, and just being with the grass and the stars and the sun.

We are confused. We want to be. To ponder, to walk and wonder whether this or anything or nothing? But everywhere, there is already an old, regimented, and structured system of what is. And it demands that we take our life from it and give our life to it. That we live by its ‘money’ and its ‘law’ and its words and culture and…

We just want to wander.

Two humans with the stars.

And it seems like we’ve found ourselves in a tyranny. A tyranny that refuses to let the most basic, simple humanness survive without reference to it. Which wishes, we hear, to extend its ‘democracy’ over the globe which, we’ve heard, we live on.

And, we really don’t claim to understand very much. We’re just two young human beings whose questions and wanderings are sincere, and that seems to have set us apart from others. I don’t think the people who live by these laws and this society have got it so wrong… and I can see how what has arisen could naturally have arisen just from people living out their lives as they must, and forming societies around that.

But, whyever whatever has happened has happened, it has happened:

We are in a tyranny. The form that life, and humanness, can take in this land we find ourselves in is forcibly limited. Such oldness has arisen that our whole lives must, we are told in every half-veiled official and institutional phrase, be lived upon bases and categories which precede us.

We respect craft. And knowledge. And the crafts of artisans. Those things are traditions. We don’t scorn the living and experience of the humans in the land we’ve found ourselves in. And if anybody has a way of life and understanding which suits them and which they wish to live out amongst those immediately around them, we have no words we could say against them. But, if two humans cannot simply wander over the land they have found themselves in, as we so long to do, and if two humans cannot simply create a way of life spontaneously and without mediation through what has been, as we so long to do, then this is a hell that we live in.

And we must fight.

Understand us—we are just two humans with sincerity. Just beginning at the beginning, and realising what strictures have been imposed upon us. And, as we must, refusing to simply accept such.

If we, two humans, cannot wander, no two humans can wander. And if two young humans—any two young humans, of whatever inclinations—cannot wander, young and possible as those two humans should rightfully be young and possible, then we must fight whoever would prevent that.

And, we find, the foe is titanic. Just vast. And maintained by so much acceptance and belief from the humans who it lives through. And so we realise the scale of the fight we must fight.

And we write this. A probably very quiet voice, read by a very few. But, we hope, amongst those few there will be some who realise what we are, and who may take solace in realising that there are others like them: humans, finding ourselves where we find ourselves. In the tyranny that we’re in. Reacting as we must, no matter how much value is contained within, or organised in accordance with the scheme of, the oppression we seek to overthrow.

Alice and Vega

xLx

(‘A Questioning’ was also published in Fenrir Issue III/121 Year of Fayen: link (featuring amusing artwork).)

Proxy

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Why the fuck do you people carry on?

Such worthless existences.

Such small dreams.

Just blindly stumbling through the chaos that orders itself again and again into patterns you can hold onto, blind to how arbitrary those patterns are.

They become your whole lives.

And you just carry on.

Fucking parasites.

The Star Game League

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xLx presents the blueprint for a Game appropriate to the New Aeon, including, and expanding upon, Lyra’s earlier ‘Star Game Musings‘. The following documents describe The Star Game League, and give suggestions regarding both its potential Aeonic significance and practical issues which may arise during its enactment. It is intended that anybody possessed of sufficient creativity and resourcefulness can, after reading them, independently create a League of their own.

As stated in the introduction, The Star Game League ‘is, in short, a blessing and a curse: an opportunity for those who can rise to one of the greatest possible challenges at this stage in our human evolution to do so, and a scourge upon all cowards and poseurs who enjoy the image but are not the reality of that higher mode of being which is a prerequisite to playing this Game.’

Recommended version (docx – aesthetically superior, if spell-check is disabled).

Pdf version (provided only for convenience’s sake).

A parting gift/A parting shot – xLx

A Nexion Seeds: a message for a young mind.

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Our mark: xLx [1]

We are making this site public for a specific, esoteric purpose. We are doing so without any attempt to edit or obfuscate the errors, failings, and general pre-initiatory ill-discipline which may or may not, depending upon how their past work is read, have affected some or all of the authors on their journey to this point. We are doing so because such an obfuscation would be antithetical to our esoteric purpose, which is to simultaneously synthesise and conclude the first phase in a specific alchemical season which will last the duration of two of our causal lives, and which is itself a partially precedented and partially unprecedented occult operation.

No new writings will be added to this site: it is one work and one unified 5-dimensional symbolism, which conveys all that is required.

With that– the conclusion of this phase passed– we retreat to continue, silently. xLx will incubate, shadowed, for a number of years, starting now. If you hear from us, it is not us. If you wish to talk with us, to comment, to debate, and to smear the common over that which is uncommon: we simply do not care.

To our kin, who we sing for: we will never betray you, we will die for you, we love you. Dance with us, and, coming kin, on the floors we are building for you from the corpses and burning wreckage of what we are culling to make you. xLx.

The stars, Lyra, the stars!

Agios o Vindex

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[1] Where the  three-fold organic, literary, and astronomical indexical significance of  ‘L’ is easy to surmise, but where the signifier also acts as a 2-dimensional diagrammatic representation of one aspect of a region of acausal space that we, uniquely, have accessed. Also, where ‘x x‘ is both a diagrammatic representation of another aspect of that acausal space, and a mathematical notation. Another 2-letter astronomical mathematical symbol is contained within the 3-letter sequence.

This mark is, then, both a 2-dimensional diagrammatic representation of what is 5-dimensional and a symbolic description of the nature of our home within those 5-dimensions, which precisely defines its significance to the world at large and its tendencies of causal manifestation.

As will be apparent to the esoterically insightful, this mark, further, represents what is, elsewhere, indicated by the union of Satan and Baphomet and what is beyond such a union. It also represents, as suggested by the second of the two aforementioned mathematical meanings, another synthesis, which synthesis relates alchemically to the lowest and middle spheres of the Tree of Wyrd (by the Naos ordering).

Our mark, then, is numinous. It bespeaks a seed that will flower, and that flowering will be an imperium of its own.

Mary Webb and Richard Moult: A sinister union?

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Mary Webb lived in Shropshire in the 19th -20th century.  She led a solitary life and expressed herself through her writing, which flows through the land, suffusing it and her alike with one another, or one the same.

Like her, Richard Moult’s work has its genesis in, and emanates from, Shropshire.  After having set to music some of her poems, he did an interview for Black Magazine in 2006, discussing the compositions, in which he said:

It was only after some years of living in the landscape which Mary loved that I felt able to set her work. As time passed living in the Shropshire hills, I merged with the ‘slowness’ (as it is to modern humans) of Nature’s own mode of time, and finally could read a miraculous poem such as ‘A Hawthorn Berry’ and truly feel her words. This was the first poem of hers I set. I started out with the idea of setting all of her poems – and I am still writing songs to her work. When I complete a song, it is as if Mary herself has given it to me as a gift; indeed, I feel her presence when I am writing, and I believe she appears to me occasionally in the form of a blackbird.  It is the unadorned beauty of her writing which moves me deeply – this is art which is completely honest and created solely from love, without a thought for contemporary artistic trends. The poetry is only a means, not an end in itself.

Having read this, and seen the connection between Webb and blackbirds, it suddenly became apparent to me that his work is scattered with them; not having known their significance before, I hadn’t noticed them.  They appear in his poetry, his paintings, and the high soprano voice used in his compositions evokes their song. [1]

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The Aeonic Flow

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The causal body of an individual is akin to a riverbed: it is a vessel to, and is shaped by, the forces which flow through it and beyond it. Alchemy can change this relationship, and symbiotically unite the individual with the water which flows over the earth of others’ causal lives, shaping them and and using them as vessels for that which is beyond them but which determines their every experience, and the shape of their personal character. Aeonic alchemy can, by stripping away all influences and returning the individual to the primordial, make a wellspring of the sinister magician: the magician, in this higher mode of existence, not only merges with the cosmic and aeonic flow whose currents determine the whole lives of lesser individuals (unbeknownst to them), but also becomes a source of that flow.

If he is a Magus, then Anton Long is one such source, and you– associates of the ONA– are, in some sense, riverbeds he inhabits. If you are possessed of that potential for greatness which is a prerequisite to success in the sevenfold way, then you, too, may consciously merge with and then generate the aeonic waters. To do such, you would need to achieve an independence from the forms which the ONA has imbued you with, for they, too, hold in thrall those who mistake them for experience of Aeonic autogenesis.

If you fail to achieve this, then you are merely a vessel: to be used, crafted, and discarded at will.

If you cannot become a totality, encompassing and changing a multitude of currents and forms which would be contradictory if viewed from a causal and individual perspective,  then you are a vessel: to be used, crafted, and discarded at will.

There is no solace here.

xLx